Dear B,

I know it has been a long, long time.  I don't know why but I just stopped writing. Until recently I started just a bit. So, sharing snippets of it here.

A silent tear escapes

Staring at the black ahead

My heart echoes the waves

Laying on the sand beneath

I trace mindlessly with a finger

Counting the stars, smiling at the moon

I feel something on my hand

I see it's a tiny crab

It has come to share the silence

My partner in the dark

I take a deep breath

Calm myself down

I will always have this sliver of peace

Amidst this crazy world.

Love,

N

Partner in Crime

Dear Blog,

Writing something that is a distant dream yet.

So many things I want to do
I want to do them with you
But I can't and it hurts me
Tell me love, what do I do?
You holding my hand
As we cross the street
Me hugging you tight
Everytime we meet
Lying on the bed
Watching a movie
Going bowling
And then some coffee
Eating chicken tandoori
Or having Pani Puri
Grabbing a drink
Or a ride on a ferry
Walking on the beach
Or dining at the restaurant
You getting your hair colored
And me sitting with you at the salon
Shopping for clothes
And helping choose them
Going for a long drive
Or breathing in your scent
Meeting your friends
Having lunch with mine
Hanging out together
But also spending our alone time
So many things I want to do
I want to do them with you
But I can't and it hurts me
Tell me love, what do I do?

Ciao,
N.

My Anchor

Hi B,

Not in the mood to say much. So just gonna copy paste something I wrote a while back for someone who has been an anchor in my life.

You'll aim for the sky and you'll reach for the stars
You'll wipe away tears that have dried
The moments of sadness will pass soon by
And you'll get back to where you fly
Cause everytime you look at me, I see you
As a tough woman who isn't shy
Can't you see yourself the way I do, fighting for her life
Cause everytime you go out there, I know you
Are laughing others who pass u by
You're the strongest wonder and gorgeous creature
The Apple of my eye

XOXO,
N

Falling in Love

Hey B,

Just something that was lying in my notes. Posting it now.

The dawn cracks open, eyes shut still
I poke my head from under to look at the window sill
Blinding me in the eye, I see a stream of light
It holds my gaze within and towards the shimmery bright
I wonder if I am awake or if it is a dream
Then I remember the tears on my face, in a single stream
The previous night was tough with thoughts provoking me
As I lay in bed, he came to my mind wild and free
Scratching at my insides, I could hear myself screaming
Stop, don't, let me go, I don't want all this crappy hustling
I've come far now from a place I was stuck in or so I thought
Now I wonder is this another hell hole that I've just bought
It is a gamble, all you can do is play
Try changing the rules, all you get is dismay
Compromises become smiles and stubbornness becomes love
Your desires are pushed away into a tiny little trove
Is it really worth it? Is it really true?
Giving yourself to another, having no clue
How to fend yourself or how to defend
Never has blind trust been known to mend
Yes it is hardships and yes it is tears
But who knows if it wasn't, there'd be still more fears
So all you can do is string the thread to the needle
And step into those strong arms and hope all they do is cradle
The comfort of that hug holds power to warm you
Such true emotion comes to very a few
Let it in, let it all in and wait for your turn
After all love is a flaming desire, moulded to shine or burn!

Love,
N

A few words

Dear Blog,

Sometimes you cannot express enough with words. At other times, a few words, a couple lines are enough to say what you want to.

You came like a breath of fresh air into my life
You touched my soul and made me smile
Life works in mysterious ways yes it's true
Never knew that as my soulmate I'd find you.

Love,
N.

I Love You

Dear Blog,

Quick, quick, quick. Got inspired by a fellow word artist and had to pen this immediately.

And probably that was what she said to you.
Though,
Through her heart the words must have bled to make you understand how she feels.
She would have dried her tears just so that you would see she was happy to be with you.
She stepped onto yet another ember but ignored the pain it burnt through her.
She downed her strangled cries in the hope that you would once again take notice of her.
She wouldn't let you see her harsh soul, ravaged until held by just weak tethers.
Her eyes so hollow and sad yet she made them smile again to get lost into yours.
She did all she could, trust me, she did.
But you failed her. Time and again.
You failed to see what she was and how she molded and withered.
You failed to see how she shook with her every breath.
You failed to give her the touch she longed for.
You failed to soothe her frail, aching heart.
You failed to tear away from yourself and kiss her cheek.
You failed miserably.
And yet you didn't fail to make her smile because that wasn't you. It was her, all along.

Let me know how was it.

Cheers for now.

Love,
N.

And She Flew

Hi Blog,

Just felt like writing something about Her. She is the power and the force that drives everything around. Yes, she breaks down but she rises up as strongly as ever. She has the strength to hold her head high up as she takes the steps towards her dream. She never backs down and fights for what is rightfully hers. She is the support system and the pillar that is the base of all good. She is Her.

Darkness shields the naked eye
It looks hazy and dead
Breath caught in my chest
Mouth gasping for air

I try to cry and shout with hate
I try to calm down and pray
Hurt deep so inside of me
It anchored deep and there it lay

No movement sees my heart
Why it pains, so I ask
It crippled me to my bones and blood
The skin and flesh is a borderline mask

Waiting to be torn apart
Or so chimes a voice in my head
Creepy is the thought so much
I manage to hold down a sob

Sudden, unexpected and a little too late
Out of nowhere, it came to sight
Okay, I smiled a bit and hid it away
Anger, irritation, confusion or delight?

Eyelashes fluttered, eyes opened to a poker face
And the smile disappeared quickly
I toughened my mushy brain to straighten up
And clenched my jaw ever so tightly

No one takes me for a ride, no they don't
Sharpened senses working overtime
My heart shouted a war cry so loud
Sky's the limit, for love and happiness cost much more than just a dime.

If it is failure in love, life, work, relations, she will pick the pieces of her life and sew them back on with a stronger thread. Her happiness is before all but she doesn't see it that way. Because she has only known to give.

Let us celebrate Her. You will, Blog, won't you? :)

Cheers,
N.

Heart Break

Dear B,

Oh yes, I am back and how indeed!!! You're gonna dance with joy at the treasure I have found, my love!!

It's just so damn fun to playback through the different 'timezones' as I read one note after another..

Beautiful stanzas and phrases strung into something so pure!! Found a few lines written by another soul and I couldn't resist but add few of mine!!

Okay, no more talks.. Go on, read it below.. :D

I thought I finally received a break
Only to see the sun fall

My eyes will not see what they longed to see
My lips will not taste what they longed to taste

Why does life have to be like this?
Full of hatred and pain
Instead of joy and bliss

I don't really want to say goodbye
I don't really want to leave you
But now I have to go away
Stay away from you forever

What we had was something special
Deep down from our hearts
But now I have to go away
And leave you from my heart

That's that and the search is back onnnn!!!

Cheers,
N

Nothing

Dear B,

I found this while going through my old notes on Facebook.. So many memories and so much to read through.. It felt wonderful going back all these years and reliving those moments..

Here is one such old moment I am sharing with you..

The faint glow of the darkness,
The whirr of the fan.
I stay awake in my bed,
Typing fast as I can.

My heart thuds and I can hear its beats,
In the black, pin drop silence, an anonymous door creaks.

Too afraid to trace out the source,
I pull the covers over my head.
Waiting for an answer,
I quietly settle in my bed.

The cruel vibration snaps me out of my reverie,
I hastily glance all around and towards a happy new memory.

A curve spreads and my heart lightens,
A new hope surges within.
As I type again I can't help but think,
It is silly, it is nothing,
But all I can say is, it strengthens my feelings.

I will keep browsing and will definitely come back to you if I find something new.. Adiós till then..

Love,
N