Hey B,
Just something that was lying in my notes. Posting it now.
The dawn cracks open, eyes shut still
I poke my head from under to look at the window sill
Blinding me in the eye, I see a stream of light
It holds my gaze within and towards the shimmery bright
I wonder if I am awake or if it is a dream
Then I remember the tears on my face, in a single stream
The previous night was tough with thoughts provoking me
As I lay in bed, he came to my mind wild and free
Scratching at my insides, I could hear myself screaming
Stop, don't, let me go, I don't want all this crappy hustling
I've come far now from a place I was stuck in or so I thought
Now I wonder is this another hell hole that I've just bought
It is a gamble, all you can do is play
Try changing the rules, all you get is dismay
Compromises become smiles and stubbornness becomes love
Your desires are pushed away into a tiny little trove
Is it really worth it? Is it really true?
Giving yourself to another, having no clue
How to fend yourself or how to defend
Never has blind trust been known to mend
Yes it is hardships and yes it is tears
But who knows if it wasn't, there'd be still more fears
So all you can do is string the thread to the needle
And step into those strong arms and hope all they do is cradle
The comfort of that hug holds power to warm you
Such true emotion comes to very a few
Let it in, let it all in and wait for your turn
After all love is a flaming desire, moulded to shine or burn!
Love,
N
