Forever and Ever and Ever

I stood alone, I stood veiled
I stared ahead without a shield

Wetness smeared my colour fast
My known identity completely unmasked

My sight hazed into a dreary scene
I lost control of my physical being

A shine caught my blurred eye
I peered, I strained, let go a sigh

Warmth flooded my veins high
A familiar persona cornered me by

The smile, the eyes, the face said it all
It was now here at my beck and call

A whiff of air jerked me quick
From the corner of my eye I saw it flick

The impression, the fragrance filled the air
The known had stepped in for its share

Relief and joy surged so fast
I wanted this beautiful feeling to last

It was here, here with me
I wanted to shout with happiness and glee

It was my support, it was my life
I hung on to it like a dying child

It soothed me, consoled me and hushed me to sleep
Unconsciously my heart conducted a gigantic leap

It is a presence and a lulling entity
It sustains and encourages my raw sanity

I love you for being there when I need you
I love you for being my moral support

I know I am lucky to have you with me
I know I am blessed with you eternally

And now for the truth so pure and bare
I found my lucky clover fresh and rare

I am a nobody, a nothing without them
And I want them to be here with me for my every game

It Happened To Me or Did it?

I was feverishly clicking my keyboard away

When you entered abruptly

My life went haywire

Because the intrusion was damn too quickly

Nights passed and days became longer

With each passing moment you came a little closer

Words knew no bounds

That I wished this last forever

Again and again my heart went out to you

Small memories forming a whole world new

I thought and fumbled over the phone

But all I wanted was to hear you

Days became months and months became years

The way it shaped had happiness and tears

I loved it, I cherished it, and I nurtured it with care

But all you could give me was no time to spare

I loved you and my habits deadened

For you it was like nothing had happened

I swallowed the bile of words that arose

I pushed back my anger with irrevocable force

But then it was all over and suddenly gone

Time is no healer when you are all alone

Wait and watch or so was I told

What do I do till then, put my life on hold?

Now I am here writing these words

Wondering what went wrong and if it could be worse

Hope for all you can says my heart

For what I have done has no remorse

I question and question yet question again

Silence imposes its way through the pain

My hollowness speaks back to me

Curtailing your presence the empty walls glare at me

As I hear the rains come down on the roof

My fingers trace out this familiar truce

A pact that I have made with myself a thousand times over

But to follow it through I still might need the lucky clover

Will I win or will I not

Can be seen only after a drought

A drought that storms and rules my life

Without you I am nothing but nobody alive

Revelation from Hell

What it was and what it became

With one night everything changed
Guilt eroded slowly my heart
Fright embedded in my chest
How could I do that to you I asked
I must be cruel and without a heart
Pain struggled at my soul and let it rip
Yet I couldn’t see you so I let it slip
Yes it was true what I did
And I told you everything
None expected left you though
Stabbed me a thousand times over
What did I do to get this?
No answer whatsoever comes to me
Hiding it beneath your perfect stature
You led me to lands unknown
Your hand was all I held there
And you didn’t think twice before absconding it
With the cruel and heartless hidden possessions
You made me feel as if I was shit
Thought I was the bad one here
But you surpassed with your talent
Why should I do this?
And why should I trust you?
While all you do is hurt me
I could very well ignore you
But I can’t be like you
I tried and still do
But you have left no reason for me to trust you.