It Happened To Me or Did it?

I was feverishly clicking my keyboard away

When you entered abruptly

My life went haywire

Because the intrusion was damn too quickly

Nights passed and days became longer

With each passing moment you came a little closer

Words knew no bounds

That I wished this last forever

Again and again my heart went out to you

Small memories forming a whole world new

I thought and fumbled over the phone

But all I wanted was to hear you

Days became months and months became years

The way it shaped had happiness and tears

I loved it, I cherished it, and I nurtured it with care

But all you could give me was no time to spare

I loved you and my habits deadened

For you it was like nothing had happened

I swallowed the bile of words that arose

I pushed back my anger with irrevocable force

But then it was all over and suddenly gone

Time is no healer when you are all alone

Wait and watch or so was I told

What do I do till then, put my life on hold?

Now I am here writing these words

Wondering what went wrong and if it could be worse

Hope for all you can says my heart

For what I have done has no remorse

I question and question yet question again

Silence imposes its way through the pain

My hollowness speaks back to me

Curtailing your presence the empty walls glare at me

As I hear the rains come down on the roof

My fingers trace out this familiar truce

A pact that I have made with myself a thousand times over

But to follow it through I still might need the lucky clover

Will I win or will I not

Can be seen only after a drought

A drought that storms and rules my life

Without you I am nothing but nobody alive