Guilt

One mistake - though I hope it doesn’t cost much,

As stupid as I was, it wasn’t a lie.

Can’t it be forgotten just this one time?

With repentance in front of me, I abide.

Don’t know why I’m writing this,

Don’t know why I’m feeling sorry.

But my heart bleeds its own,

With remorse I did try.

Can just pray and can just hope,

That it gets alright.

But the uneasiness caused inside,

Flutters by like a bird dying.

I want it to be okay,

And I want it to be perfect.

The words that I faced,

Jabbed me in the gut like a stye.

Please forgive me for what I did,

I’m just a nobody.

All I want is peace,

But till now I’m not getting any.

This is my fault,

But I’m not the one suffering enough.

All I want is to forget,

And rush by as if nothing happened.

I promise myself,

That I will not let myself down.

All I need is a hand that,

Rests above me and guides me through and out.