Dear Blog,
Ahhh! It does feel good to be back. Okay, technically I am writing through my cell phone but all the same, it feels wonderful to meet you again.
The past year and a half, I was too busy with the nitty gritties of the 'adult life'. Work, stress, deadlines and pay checks! Amidst all these activities, I lost myself. I worked mechanically; my brain had shut down the creative window. I was all caught up in waking up early, getting ready for work, reaching office, going through the daily motions, listening to my boss shouting, pack up, leave for home, have dinner, check up the social media, sleep; thus establishing a monotonous routine to my life. This grind got to me, daily and one day it had to stop.
But it wasn't easy. There were monthly expenses; EMIs, RDs, Premiums, etc. One decision would be the one affecting all. Income would stop but the expenses would stay. It became hard to survive in that plastic world where there was no place for conscience and guilt, no reward for truth; all it had was cheating, slaving, harbouring interest in personal grudges, insulting, teasing, recognising the one who lied the best......the list goes on.
And one night, while watching TV with my family, it poured all out. Words flowed, emotions shackling me. But they held me, consoled me, let me cry. Everything that was bottled inside came unrestrained. I felt light, felt at peace and I looked at them. They held my hand, showed me through this mess and guided me to a new door. They handed me a tiny key and said, 'Explore the world and find your feet. We believe in you and know you can do wonders. What has happened is in the past. Look forward and succeed in your chosen field. We are always there with you. We love you no matter what.' And there. Those words filled me with fresh determination. I had a vision. I had an aim. I had hope. I would root my feet to the ground that would help me walk on. I have reason to believe, 'Whatever happens, happens for a good reason. You may curse now but undoubtedly will smile later.'
Love,
N.
Ahhh! It does feel good to be back. Okay, technically I am writing through my cell phone but all the same, it feels wonderful to meet you again.
The past year and a half, I was too busy with the nitty gritties of the 'adult life'. Work, stress, deadlines and pay checks! Amidst all these activities, I lost myself. I worked mechanically; my brain had shut down the creative window. I was all caught up in waking up early, getting ready for work, reaching office, going through the daily motions, listening to my boss shouting, pack up, leave for home, have dinner, check up the social media, sleep; thus establishing a monotonous routine to my life. This grind got to me, daily and one day it had to stop.
But it wasn't easy. There were monthly expenses; EMIs, RDs, Premiums, etc. One decision would be the one affecting all. Income would stop but the expenses would stay. It became hard to survive in that plastic world where there was no place for conscience and guilt, no reward for truth; all it had was cheating, slaving, harbouring interest in personal grudges, insulting, teasing, recognising the one who lied the best......the list goes on.
And one night, while watching TV with my family, it poured all out. Words flowed, emotions shackling me. But they held me, consoled me, let me cry. Everything that was bottled inside came unrestrained. I felt light, felt at peace and I looked at them. They held my hand, showed me through this mess and guided me to a new door. They handed me a tiny key and said, 'Explore the world and find your feet. We believe in you and know you can do wonders. What has happened is in the past. Look forward and succeed in your chosen field. We are always there with you. We love you no matter what.' And there. Those words filled me with fresh determination. I had a vision. I had an aim. I had hope. I would root my feet to the ground that would help me walk on. I have reason to believe, 'Whatever happens, happens for a good reason. You may curse now but undoubtedly will smile later.'
Love,
N.
Intense..!!
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