A New Beginning

I clutch the phone in my hand
I stare dead into the nightstand
Tears choke back, I fight to breathe
Waiting for that creepy thought to seep
Amongst the anguish and the fear
Plop falls the first tear
Stumbling and failing to grasp reality
I sit down grappling with my sanity
Memories fly by and I lose control
Silently praying with my whole and soul
The words continue ringing in my head
I felt sorry and mad and I felt naked
Like the love had been snatched away from me
I couldn't feel, I couldn't think, I couldn't see
And then came my strength alive
Rose my spirits beyond and high
Not for you I won't ever wait
For all the lessons of love and hate
Today is a new day - clear as glass
The previous feeling will never last
And closing my eyes I say to thee
Thank you for introducing a new me.