Scared to Hope

I sense a calling

I feel a knowing
I drift away
Towards a strange feeling

I peer around
Searching for a familiar trust
Prodding deep in the surroundings
Layers form dirt beneath the crust

My heart thuds hastily
Knowing not that it can hope

Because hope not
It has been taught
Over and above those scenes
That hope bought

It crashed
Crashed so bad
That healing was something
Difficult and a distant tad

Yet running away didn’t help
Which wasn’t the first choice at all
It was forced and laden upon
Cruelly, to come out of it all

Now here are the thoughts
And choices to make
Sprinting awry are
The numerous decisions at stake

Life was strategically held
Edging the crevice
Silent thinking came to the rescue
And now all that matters is
A simple and yet a complex summarize